There are some days when I feel like a puppy at the pound, waiting for adoption. "Pick me!" I would plead with my sad doe eyes. "Pick me, you know you want to!" It's funny how there are all these mixed motions about whether or not you are good enough to be picked. I wonder what it's like for the IPs, how do they know when they pick a girl that that girl is the right one for them? Is it based on the photo? The answers to the survey? The GPA, ACT, and SAT scores? It's odd to think that we are reduced to stats on a few sheets of paper and based on that the IPs are supposed to know if we (the donors) are right for them. It's not any more intimate than pulling up to a drive through and placing your order. Oddly enough, when you do get the chance to actually talk to an IP, it really makes you feel real. It makes what you are about to do feel real. It makes everything less sterile and cold and more like you are helping out friends. It's good knowing that you are not just your first inital and a handful of numbers.

Do you think that it's fair for a donor to be listed with more than one agency? I know that there are quite a few donors out there that are listed with more than one agency. Is it wrong? I don't know. It might just be creating more exposure for the donor. Is it fair? I would think that since it is a first come first served type of business then it can't be unfair. Kind of that "you snoozed, you lose" type of deal--as mean as that sounds. When a donor is listed in multiple locations, but for the same compensation, I think it helps to off the IPs an alternative if that particular agency is not working for them. I believe that you can find the right donor but that the right agency doesn't always go hand in hand. I am all about options.

The sun is calling, that's all for today.

The last few weeks have felt like the twilight zone. I have been away from home for weeks. Traveling around the world and back again. It's fun in theory but when you are doing it, it's another story all together. And just as I am starting to get better with the jet-lag, my body revolts....Is it possible that because of my donations that I have somehow managed to make myself more susceptible to UTIs? Too much info, maybe, but I had never had an UTI until January, a month after I had my first donation. I had my second one two weeks after my second donation...correlation or coincidence? You tell me. I am now, on my third and painful one....I am starting to think that's how my body gets back at me for donating. Ok, off that topic, onto the next.

The last few weeks have been pretty eventful in terms of being an egg donor. On top of traveling around the world, I have been approached by four couples with two different agencies. It really became a game with timing. Who's schedule worked with mine. Granted, I can't help them all but it would have been nice to be able to. Tiring, but nice. One couple that had been pursuing me for months backed out, after I had cleared my upcoming work schedule to make it work for them. I guess its the nature of the beast. The other couple, from an agency that I have donated for, has been in the works for a while. I think we have a match :). From what I understand they would like to have a semi-opened donation, meaning that they would actually like to speak to me via conference call. It's nice to not just be another nameless donor in a book of profiles. If this goes through, I am hoping that we can have the retrieval in August, what with my travel schedule, August is the best time for me. Hopefully it works out.

Today, I ran into a predicament. I came face to face with the real possibility that I may not have anyone that can go with me to the retrieval. This time, it would be out of state. Makes me nervous thinking that maybe I don't know enough people to have a friend that would do this. But at the same time, I have plenty of friends that don't know I donate in the first place. It's not something you bring up in casual conversation. So, here I am, trying to figure out what will happen if I go to the retrieval alone. I am sure that happens and will happen, but what happens? That's something no one tells you.

Another thing no one tells you is the couple from my second donation got pregnant. I guess I could always ask. Well, that's all today, keep you posted. Oh, and I am pretty surprised that I actually have readers. Thank you for reading and I read all your comments and emails. I will try to be better at posting.